Wow, I’ve been away for a while.
I haven’t forgotten about this but it’s just so hard to set a time to sit and write. Anyways, here I am today! Have grace upon me, all. 😀
Today’s post is on… Floating by Faith 🙂
I am no swimmer.
The swimming style I do best is the rock (cos I sink to the bottom) :’D
So when I went to the Dead Sea last year… I was scared. Naturally!
Science says I’ll be able to float, and even people that had their first try also tried to comfort me.
But you know, sometimes you can’t believe what people say until you’ve experienced it for yourself…
The girls that was with me tried to give me advice on how to float.
Either I didn’t follow the advice to the tee, or I’m just not a born floater – When I tried the technique, I didn’t float properly. Instead, I got a splash full of really salty water in my mouth and eyes. OUCH. (Remember, the scene is the Dead Sea here).
Of course I knew why my technique didn’t work out.
I didn’t believe in myself. I didn’t believe it would work for ME.
I believed it would work for everybody else, but somehow I just excluded myself out of the miracle (this happens all the time).
After spitting out mouthfuls of salty stuff from my mouth, I decided to try again.
I’m not about to leave the Dead Sea without me floating!!! #determined.
“Just lean back,” one of the girls said to me. “It’ll be okay!”
So. I just closed my eyes this time, hoping, hoping that it will work for me.
“Catch me sea,” that’s what I was thinking hahahaha. (SO MUCH TRUST ON THE SEA!!)
‘Just lean back,’ the phrase repeated in my mind.
Okay to y’all who can swim, this isn’t a big thing for you guys okay. But for me, this is a BIG thing.
I floated, and all I had to do was lean back.
I had to do something on my part first, but when I did – the miracle happened!
(I hope you know where I’m getting at here).
Sometimes for the miracle to happen, we need to make our move first.
Yeah, that first move is so scary!! Whatever that first move is. Whether it’d be tithing, or giving your relationship to the Lord, or giving your whole life, or even just giving up your phone for a little bit!
Whatever your first move is, I know how scary it is.
We need to move, so He’s able to move.
I needed to lean backwards (move) so that the sea can catch me and enable me to float.
In the same way we need to lean towards God (move) so that He can catch us and guide us to green pastures.
Moving towards God without being able to see what the result is – is called FAITH.
I feel like my faith has been stretched time and time again this year, and as the year is coming to a close – there is a big finale for sure.
But I know that God is faithful, and He reminds me so.
Some of you may know, or don’t, but I’ve taken a detour in my teaching career and currently studying Counselling.
How my faith has been stretched:
1. Losing income is unavoidable
2. Going into unknown territories
3. I don’t even know if I’ll have a job out of these studies
4. Questioning myself all the time: Why am I doing this? What is my purpose?
5. Seeking Him as ultimate provider
My feelings have gone up and down in the past months, but one thing still remains in my heart. It is the pull of ‘keep going even if you can’t see the miracle yet’.
So many times during this semester I wanted to pull out and withdraw. But so many times the Spirit in me says, ‘No, you gotta keep going.’
There were times I challenged God. “You brought me here. You open doors for me God.”
You know what?
Of course, I had to do the work. I had to move first.
I emailed many places to find placements for my studies (requirement of 200 hours face to face), and God definitely opened doors. Interviews flew in, and offer of placements did too.
I believe God is at work, all the time. There has been alignments during my studies, to meet specific people, to have conversations with them, to connect with them – by no means an accident.
I am grateful for where He’s taken me, and I’m grateful for the people around me that supported me in prayers as well as encouragements throughout this process.
It’s only the beginning (so people please stay in my life).
God reminds me that there is more to life than just living for myself, and I pray throughout my studies I can be a vessel and blessing.
Some thoughts 🙂
>> Faith is when we move, but not knowing what lies ahead of us. It is when we are close to Him and His wants. I saw myself in the boat, in the middle of the sea. But the fog is so thick, and I can only see what was immediately in front of me. But I just needed to keep going, one step at a time.
>> Are you in the situation like that too? Is the fog around you so thick that you can’t even see? Sometimes we can’t feel hope either, but know that hope and joy is in the midst of us – even if it doesn’t feel like it!
>> Having people around me means a lot to me, especially people of faith. I’m so grateful to be surrounded by people that are grounded in His values and Kingdom. What about you? Is there someone that can root for you, pick you up when you fall – and push you to do your best?
Love and blessings xx